Patricia in wonderland

剛看完不知道看過了幾次的戀愛沒有假期，還是一樣喜歡這種淡淡的沒有心理負擔的劇情，但心境卻完全不同了。

"Iris: I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

我曾經好愛上面這段話，完全道出當時失戀悵然若失的滋味。剛特別倒轉看了兩次，心情平靜到已無任何感覺。剛才發現，這部片已經十年了。十年的變化太大，雖然現在偶爾還是會落入過去回憶裡，但同時也了解因為過去的不幸才有今日的幸福。

在臨終的那天，我會握著你的手，盡我最大的力氣跟你說，「我現在要親你第一百萬次，然後就要跟你說再見了。」就像每天你送我去上班的道別一樣。