Patricia in wonderland

這幾天生活作息越來越正常，晚上一兩點睡，早上六七點起床。我是個睡眠時間不需要太多的人，一天五六個小時就足夠。這樣的作息跟之前比起來實在正常化太多，以前是早上七八點睡睡到下午才起床，冬天可以一整天看不到白日。也許就是因為不見陽光，心情上就多少有些鬱卒，不要以為太陽跟情緒沒關係，根據報告指出，住在光線充足屋子內的人遠比陰暗房屋快樂多。

大衣出櫃了，圍巾也跑出來抱住脖子，晚上的被子要蓋兩條還要加上毛襪才能保暖。

剛看完不知道看過了幾次的戀愛沒有假期，還是一樣喜歡這種淡淡的沒有心理負擔的劇情，但心境卻完全不同了。

"Iris: I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade."

我曾經好愛上面這段話，完全道出當時失戀悵然若失的滋味。剛特別倒轉看了兩次，心情平靜到已無任何感覺。剛才發現，這部片已經十年了。十年的變化太大，雖然現在偶爾還是會落入過去回憶裡，但同時也了解因為過去的不幸才有今日的幸福。